I seem to have fallen off the horse again.  I NEED to get back on it!!

I had an extremely over-indulgent weekend, and this honey badger don’t care! (if you don’t know what that means, look up honey badger don’t care on you tube!)

I did care, I cared a lot.  I cared so much that I started to research weight loss surgery options.  Turns out, I don’t have any options.  My insurance believes that my BMI isn’t high enough to warrant coverage for the surgery.  I guess it’s for the best.  I want to lose my chubba bubba the old fashion way.  I think women who do have weight loss surgery are extremely brave, and after 2 c-sections, I think any more cutting across my abdomen would be very bad and wicked painful.

We went to Kowloon on Friday with my husband’s god-daughter to feast on Saugus wings in honor of her mom. (Tina loved her some Saugus wings!) I planned for this dinner.  I ate nothing.  I sucked down water like there was an impending drought forecasted.  I watched my portions and only sampled things.  Then we went to Zynga’s frozen yogurt.  Holy Shit!!! That place is beyond amazing.  The fresh fruit is soo fresh, and the other toppings are infinite (so it seems anyway.) It is definitely my new favorite place. I was well-behaved there as well.  I only squirted a little yogurt in my cup and added tons of fresh fruit and nuts.

On Saturday, we all went to Canobie Lake with my bro’s family. We had  a lot of fun, minus the thunder, lightning, and off and on downpours.  I had some soft-serve, a bite of fried dough, and some popcorn. Then on Sunday, my brother and the family came up for a swim.  He brought hotdogs, hamburgers, chicken, and snackies.  My brother also cooked all the food he brought.  Oh, I need to let you all know that I tried ( and the important word here is tried) to eat a Thin and Trim chicken hotdog from Market Basket.  Even burnt to hell on the grill, put in a bun and covered with ketchup and mustard, it still tasted like, well it tasted like what I assume chicken shit would taste (Thanks Bill!)     Oh, I neglected to mention that my hubby got up early and prepared a 5 course breakfast!  So, as you can see, my weekend was one food trap after another.  I thought I did pretty good at only “sampling” the bad stuff.  But, my scale sees things differently.

When I confessed to my husband that I cheated and weighed myself on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, he very calmly said to his hysterical wife, “you’re most likely retaining water.”  I shooed him away.  Then I did a little research.  I drank like a fish on Friday.  Then ate sodium laced Chinese food.  I didn’t really drink a lot of water on Saturday or Sunday.  My research informed me that my body was most likely holding onto fluid, and I was probably dehydrated.  IT (the internet) also told me that if I gain more than 1/2 pound in 24 hours, it’s most likely fluid.  So, back to making sure I drink enough water to keep me hydrated and feeling full.

A year ago today, someone I love passed away. Left behind are 4 amazing children, their loving dad,  2 very understanding and supportive  fiances , an adorably rambunctious grandson, a nephew with arms big enough to hug them all and an even bigger heart to love them with, and a ton of family and friends who miss her and still question why? Tina I hope you have found some peace and look down in awe of your family.

Miss you Tina