(This post has an R rating- inappropriate adult language.)

I have returned from a fun, somewhat relaxing vacation to:

a broken, algae filled pool (and of course it’s going to be hotter than hell this week!)

a working, but not working correctly, dryer

a stack of bills

an order form for my son’s school uniforms (really?!?! normal clothes do not cost this much)

a mouse head, after my serial killer cats, Micky and Mallory decapitated it

and the best of all….my husband’s truck is back in the shop looking at a bill of $1000 or more.  Mind you, we just paid $500 to service it and fix a few small things before we left.

Now, we all know that my hormones are a jumbled mess thanks to the PCOS.  I am a walking ball of stress most days.  And, I don’t handle stress all that well. I get angry, I cry, I yell!  (Weird side notes, this does not happen to me at work.  I have always been able to handle my shit no matter what job I was doing, even when I was a social worker in hell. I am also pretty adept at dealing with other people’s’ stress.)

So I think I may have this tattooed on me somewhere or at least make up a t-shirt, as this is what you will all be hearing from here on out. I apologize in advance for my profound rudeness.

I’m just tired of hearing everyone say, “Oh it will work out, It will get better…” Please don’t get me wrong.  I fully know that we are much better off than others.  God has blessed me with an amazing family and friends, a nice home, and a job.  We’re all healthy for the most part, and trying to get healthier! I do not take any aspect of my life for granted.  It’s just that little annoyances that cost a shitload of money add up and when there’s just not enough money coming in, one tends to stress out and break every once in a while.  I’m currently breaking, so please disregard this rant.

Whew….I’m so glad that’s out of my system.

I’m back to tracking my food, drinking oceans of water, and peeing like there’s no tomorrow. I have also added some herbal supplements to help counteract some of the PCOS symptoms.  I am determined to feel better about myself. I’m determined to try to let things out of my control go. I’m determined to manage our finances in a smarter manner, and I need to believe that we will get out of the hole we put ourselves in. Perhaps this should be my new motto:

Just breathe……………

Oh, I almost forgot. Last night I made the roasted chick peas that are mentioned in my favorite recipe section.  They were a huge hit! The kids and the hubby loved them. If you Google them, there are a ton of different spices you can use.